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The Days I Loved You Most by Amy Neff

Contemporary fiction

The Days I Loved You Most

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Elegiac but ultimately life-affirming, a devoted couple near the end of their lives grapple with the past and legacy.

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Synopsis

Unforgettable and utterly romantic, The Days I Loved You Most is an emotional, life-affirming novel that asks, What if you could write the final chapter of your own love story?

In the summer of 1941, on the New England shores where they were raised, Evelyn and Joseph fell in love. Now, more than sixty years later, with a lifetime between them, they have gathered their three grown children to share the staggering news: she has received a heartbreaking diagnosis, and he can’t live without her. So in one year’s time they will end their love story on their own terms.

Over the next year, the couple retraces their past—all the joys and regrets that brought them to this moment. They embark on a journey to live out their greatest dreams and to connect with each of their children. But as their final days draw closer, they must confront the stark reality of what’s to come, and make peace with the legacy they will leave behind for their family.

Spanning the twentieth century from World War II to 9/11 and beyond, The Days I Loved You Most is a timeless tale of unwavering devotion—a moving tribute to the enduring power of love and a reminder that even in the darkest moments, there is always hope and beauty to be found.

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This book contains mentions of suicidal ideation.

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The Days I Loved You Most

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Evelyn

June 2001

Joseph’s words loom before us, waiting. I reach for his hand, calmed by the map of calluses, cuticles rimmed with dirt from planting bulbs this afternoon. My fingers shake in his grip. Sweat forms where our palms meet.

Our children sit across from us on the sagging couch. They are silent. The two lamps nearest us glow yellow beneath their shades. Joseph clicked them on as the room darkened, no one willing to interrupt the conversation to stand and flip on the lights overhead. Moonlight spills onto the dual pianos in the study, glinting off the ivory keys. The windows are open to the night that moved in as we spoke and the air is stale and thick, exceptionally hot for late spring in Connecticut. The only sound is the whirring ceiling fan above and the echo of waves from Bernard Beach around the bend.

When the kids were growing up and our home was still the Oyster Shell Inn, the coffee table hid beneath half-finished puzzles depicting New England lighthouses. Tonight, it’s buried in appetizers, blocks of cheese that have begun to gloss and soften; stems of plucked grapes and a few lone crackers litter the platters. Joseph told me not to go to the trouble—but Thomas had come from Manhattan and we hadn’t seen him since Christmas. This rare visit from our son gave me an excuse to walk to the new wine and cheese shop in town. The one across from Vic’s Grinders that had been there since the grandkids were young, and Joseph pressed dollar bills into their palms before sending them to fetch wax paper-wrapped sandwiches for lunch on the beach. Joseph tried to talk me out of it but I can still find my way, though I move slower now. The mission kept me focused, my mind from drifting.

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Why I love it

Seldom have I been so moved by a book as I was by The Days I Loved You Most!

When Evelyn learns that she has a terminal illness, she and her husband of sixty years, Joseph, make a stunning decision: In one year, they will end their lives together. They inform their three adult children and begin to live out the plan despite their family’s suggestions.

The story that follows is both a chronicle of that year and of the sumptuous preceding decades of their lives, from the Second World War to the present. The Days I Loved You Most is equal parts touching romance and family saga, set against the backdrop of more than a half century. It is about the lives we build and the legacies we leave and learning to savor the most important moments. The book’s ending is as surprising as it is moving, and it left me asking hard questions even as I dried my eyes.

Fans of Nicholas Sparks and Jojo Moyes will devour, as I did, this unforgettable story about loss, second chances and the lengths to which we are willing to go for love. As a mother, child, and wife, I felt every moment of this story, and I laughed, cried with, and rooted for Evelyn and Joseph every step of the way. Grab your tissues and call your book club because your next must-read has arrived!

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